I think I’ve almost set a record between my Grandmother, Mom, Aunt & my Sister…. for being pregnant the longest. Not really a record I want to set, but here I am, none-the-less. Still going strong at 39wks 2 days.. I realize I haven’t even made it to my “due date” yet, but no one thought I was even going to make it this long.
Every day is a challenging head game of wait & see; please note: I am REALLY NOT GOOD at these type of games that test my patients and have no end date. Sure, there is an end date, BUT WHAT IS IT???
So since I’m still pregnant, I decided that maybe I actually do have time to make a few freezer meals. I had kind of been putting this off because the task itself seemed really daunting. Planning & preparing multiple meals at one time!? I can barely cook dinner without a meltdown from a certain toddler I know – How was I ever going to spend hours in the kitchen? I had a few weekends where I planned to do it, but then I just never did it.
So Sunday afternoon I pulled out my Make it Freeze it cookbook and flipped through it until I had a few recipes. Then I went on Pinterest and found a few recipes for meals that weren’t in the book but that I wanted to make.
I wrote out my grocery list, and then text my Mom to see if she could come watch Paisley for a few hours on Monday so that I could knock out these freezer meals. I’m not a dummy, there is absolutely no way Paisley would tolerate me standing in the kitchen for hours on end. Naps are so hit & miss these days that I couldn’t really count on that either. Grandma to the rescue!
Okay, back to my freezer meal plan.. but Paisley is so cute, right? She had a blast taking pictures with Grandma! Lot’s of twirling & singing was involved.
I planned out 6 meals, and each meal would have 4-6 servings;
Upstate Minestrone (from the Make it Freeze it cookbook)
Rustic Italian Tortellini soup (MIFI cookbook)
Zesty Hamburger soup (MIFI cookbook)
Baked Spaghetti (MIFI cookbook)
Chicken Pot pie (pinterest)
Shepherds Pie (pinterest)
Rustic Italian Tortellini Soup:
Prep: 20 min / Cook: 20 min
Makes 6 servings (2 quarts)
3/4lb Italian Turkey sausage links, casings removed
1 medium onion, chopped
6 garlic cloves, minced
2 cans (14.5 oz ea) reduced sodium chicken broth
1 3/4 c water
1 can (14.5oz) diced tomatoes, undrained
1 package (9oz) cheese tortellini
1 pkg (6oz) fresh baby spinach, coarsely chopped
2 1/4 tsp minced fresh basil or 3/4 tsp dried basil
1/4 tsp pepper
- Crumble the sausage into a dutch oven; add onion. Cook and stir over medium heat until meat is no longer pink. Add the garlic; cook for 1 minute longer. Stir in the broth, water & tomatoes. Bring to a boil.
- Add the tortellini; return to a boil. Cook for 5-8 minutes or until almost tender, stirring occasionally. Reduce heat; add the spinach, basil, pepper and pepper flakes. Cook 2-3 minutes or until spinach is wilted and tortellini are tender. Serve with cheese if desired.
Place individual portions of cooled soup in freezer containers and freeze. To use, partially thaw in refrigerator overnight. Heat through in a saucepan, stirring occasionally and adding a little broth if necessary.
Let’s wrap this up, shall we? I’ll post the other two recipes tomorrow!
“Mommy, play with me.” She says as she grabs my hand and tries with all her might to pull me away from the stove.
It’s time to get dinner started, Paisley is bored and wants me to play with her. I have to start dinner. It’s not going to cook itself. I need to wash the dishes in the sink. I need to finish charting from today’s patient load. I need to put away the clothes from this past weekend. I need to hang the clothes that have been laying in a basket for a few days.
She pulls my hand again and asks me to play with her again. “I can’t,” I tell her, again.
My heart breaks. I feel like crying. My child wants my attention, and I can’t or won’t give it to her because so many other things also need my attention.
This scenario happens all too often around here. It’s been happening more & more frequently as she grows older and is less entertained by her current toys. Her attention span is short; it’s not her fault. She’s not even 3 yet.
Am I doing her a disservice by keeping her home with me? Am I teaching her enough? Is she getting enough engagement? We don’t play with friends nearly as often as we should.
We can’t. I don’t have time. I don’t know that many people here.
Should we send her to school? We can’t afford it. Maybe I should get a regular job that pays more, No, not an option. I don’t want her to go to school yet. I want to stay home with her.
My house is a disaster. I’ll never be able to stay on top of it because I can’t even get ahead of it.
These are all my thoughts; the things that make me feel inadequate. I’m not a good enough Mom. I’m not a good enough employee. I’m not a good enough housekeeper. I’m not a good enough Coach. I’m not a good enough friend.
I honestly never realized how many of these, “I’m not good enough” thoughts I had in my head until just now.
It is hard to feel like you’re good enough when you feel like you’re drowning in the simple day to day life.
They say the days are long & the years are short. I know that’s true, but in the middle of a shit storm, everything feels neverending.
Today is a new day. All I can do is my very best.
Oh my goodness, y’all. We went to the Magic Kingdom this weekend, and I am exhausted! We started the weekend with a Friday night visit to Mickey’s Not so Scary Halloween.
Paisley’s first glimpse at Mickey & MinnieHere they come in the Boo to You Halloween Parade!
I wasn’t really sure what to expect with Mickey’s Not so Scary Halloween. We’ve never gone before, and although I have friends that have gone, I never thought to ask what it was like.
The event starts at 7pm, although we were told that you could enter the park at 4pm with MNSSHP tickets. The pre-parade entertainment started at 8:15 with the parade starting at 8:30. The parade was pretty neat, there was quite an array of characters. Paisley doesn’t really know who the majority of the characters are, but she had fun waving and screaming HI to everyone!
After the parade, we were funneled towards the back of the park, and on our way to find candy and Ariel. What I didn’t know until the night of the event was that the candy stations are spread out through every “land” of Magic Kingdom. Needless to say, we did not get much candy (which I’m okay with, BTW). Honestly, I wasn’t super impressed with this aspect of the event.
I did like that most of the characters were still at the greeting areas, and plenty of rides were still open. Paisley got to meet Minnie, Daisy, Donald & Ariel on Friday night.
Paisley was a little shy with Ariel during her first encounter – a real live person in a mermaid costume is probably pretty intimidating to a kid! But her 2nd encounter on Saturday, while we were at the Magic Kingdom, was much better. (Waiting on pictures from that encounter, there is a super sweet one that my Mom took.)
The fireworks show was pretty awesome – Paisley hates fireworks, so this part was not awesome. She sat cuddled up on Daddy with her hands over her ears for the duration of the show. I can’t recall what time this was, I think it was around 10:15. I do remember that we were in line to meet Minnie, Daisy & Donald… yeah, still at the park.
We started our trek back to the front of the park, but got a little lost, and ended up getting stuck behind the final parade at 11:15. I don’t know what time we ended up leaving the park, but we didn’t get back to our room at Port Orleans – Riverside until after 1am.
30 weeks pregnant, and ready to do The Magic Kingdom with my Princess’ & Prince
My mother in law, Mary, scored us all an awesome breakfast reservation at Chef Mickey first thing Saturday morning. This was an AMAZING experience, but OMG, getting up at 5:30 after going to bed after 1 am was HARD!!
But the breakfast, that was super worth it! Chef Mickey is at the Contemporary Resort, which is amazing all on its own. We had 7:45 reservations and were seated pretty quickly. I don’t know if all of Chef Mickey is character dining, or if it’s all buffet style, but that’s how our breakfast was.
Paisley got to meet Minnie, Mickey, Goofy, Pluto & Donald! She loved every second of it!
The food was excellent. I’m not typically a fan of buffets but in Disney style, the food was excellent.
Shout out to Mary for this AMAZING outfit! She found this gem on Etsy! It is seriously adorable, and Paisley loved it!
I am planning on doing a Minnie themed birthday party, so we will be able to use the skirt again! I am all about dual purpose specialty clothing!
Next up was our first monorail ride to Magic Kingdom! As soon as we entered the park we headed to Ariel’s Grotto because Paisley wanted to meet Ariel (again).
The wait was 40 minutes, and we explained to her that we would have to stand in line and wait for a long time, but she insisted on meeting Ariel.
and then she fell asleep on Daddy while we waited.
We stopped for lunch at Pinocchio’s Village Haus . Decent food for a decent prize. As with all things Disney, food is extremely overpriced, but I didn’t find this place to be horribly ridiculous. Except for water still be $3. That is crazy. I drink a lot of water. Chris said I spent his monthly beer allowance on water this weekend. #sorrynotsorry
The carousel was our final ride at The Magic Kingdom – of course there is so much more to do, but we were all so tired. Paisley was barely staying awake, and her attitude was starting to show just how tired she was. Actually, we did do the train ride that goes around MK, but she AND Chris fell asleep. So we headed back to our hotel for a little down time before we had to venture over to Disney Springs for our dinner reservation at The Boathouse.
We took the boat from Port Orleans – Riverside to Disney Spring Market Landing. When I inquired as to how long this would take, I was told plan for 45 minutes. It took about an hour. The ride itself didn’t take that long, but the boat is only so big and quite a few people had the same idea we did. So we had to wait a little bit longer for a boat.
It was also a little bit of a walk from the Market Landing to The Boathouse – we arrived just a few minutes after our reservation, but all was well. Thankfully we had a reservation because people were looking at 2 hour wait times!!! YIKES!
I had a super delicious pasta dish. It was called Vegetable Pappardelle, so good! I’m currently looking for a similar recipe on Pinterest. Chris had shrimp & grits, which he said was great. My Mom had coconut shrimp, I think she liked it. Paisley had a cheeseburger & fries, which she ate without having to be asked 700 times.
We sat outside on the deck; it was perfect. We had such amazing weather this weekend! We really lucked out with the weather. Florida is so temperamental in October!
We called it a night after dinner and headed back to our hotel via bus.
Sunday morning we “slept in.” Paisley woke up around 7:30 requesting to get in bed with Daddy. So we lounged in bed for a little bit before getting up to go get breakfast at the Riverside Grill on the Port Orleans property. It was a fairly simple process – self-service kind of thing. Again, the food was decent & not astronomically priced. I think the prices were pretty similar to what you would pay at a regular breakfast join.
After we packed up the truck we parked in the main parking lot at Port Orleans and then got on a bus to head over to The Contemporary. I wanted to take Paisley on one last adventure, and I knew she would enjoy riding the bus & monorail one last time.
When we were at The Contemporary on Saturday morning for the Chef Mickey breakfast, I noticed that they had quite a few of those machines that smash pennies and put designs on them. You know the ones I’m talking about, right?
Paisley LOVES these! Sadly Disney has done away with the crank machines, but she still enjoyed putting in the coins & pushing the button. So we let her choose a few designs that she wanted to do, and then I did two different 2016 designs. We ended up with 7 smashed coins, and one coin book to keep them in.
It’s interesting how much a child’s perspective can change your own perspective. I have never been into Disney. It has always blown my mind that people travel from all around the World and spend tens of thousands of dollars to make these trips happen.
Now that I’ve experienced Disney through Paisley’s eyes, I can totally see how that happens. Self-control is hard in that place, and those crazy magic bands with your credit card information do not help that situation what-so-ever!
I’m already planning our next trip! HA! It’s not for a while, like December 2017. I think we will go for the girl’s birthdays (and mine)! Isn’t Chris lucky that all his ladies birthdays are in December? (that’s sarcasm).
Until next time,
From my prayer journal this morning,
“It seems that we have been waiting on “What’s next” since we moved to Lakeland. I don’t feel settled here. I don’t know why, I just feel like something is missing. I feel like we are here, but we are waiting on something else – waiting….. I don’t remember feeling this way when we lived in Hernando Beach. Am I waiting on our next adventure/trip? On a new job? On the next move? I’m feeling totally unfulfilled, like there is just something missing from our every day life – but I have no idea what it is.”
It is hard to wait when you don’t know what you are waiting for – What would I even do to make the waiting stop?
Am I anxious about what is to come in the next 7-9 weeks? Probably. But the feeling of something missing has been going on much longer than just the 8 months I’ve been pregnant. So here I am, waiting. Praying over the wait, reading while I wait, and learning more about our God while I wait.
I love these verses from Psalm 139
“Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous ways in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.”
I haven’t written lately because I haven’t felt like I had anything of any real value to say; so instead of just rambling on here & sharing my life, I’ve said nothing. But if I say nothing, what is the point of this blog?
A friend messaged me on fb earlier this week and her message made me realize that just because I don’t feel like I have nothing of value to share doesn’t mean that someone else wouldn’t find value in what I have to say.
I love that you share so much of yourself on FB bc sometimes I read something & just think “yes!”
Her message was so important to me – It’s important because I use my facebook has an outlet & a way to reach other Women & other Mom’s. Being a Mom is one of the hardest things I have ever done, and sometimes it can be so isolating.
It’s like this is this unwritten rule that Moms can’t have bad days, and if we do, we surely shouldn’t talk about it because by God we are so blessed to have these little monsters that wreak havoc on our lives 24 hours a day.
Don’t get me wrong, I am so blessed to have Paisley, and I wouldn’t trade her. I wouldn’t go back and change anything about the last 2.5 years, but being a Mom is hard. No matter if you work in a regular job, if you’re a work from home mom, or if you’re a stay at home Mom. At the end of the day, we are all responsible for raising these tiny terrors that have taken over our lives.
so maybe I don’t have something profound to say, but I do always have something to say.
Until next time,